I’m a worrywart. I try my best not to worry but I end up worrying. I worry about my finances (thats one of the first things I worry about), my boyfriend’s health, and how I’m going to do certain things. I’m familiar w/ the scriptures about worrying (Matthew 6:25-34) but I can’t stop my brain from worrying. I worry about my finances a lot because I live from paycheck to paycheck. I work a minimum wage job and I work my behind off!! Every time I turn around, I have to pay bills! I really don’t have time to enjoy my money because I’m either paying bills or paying for things I need. I also pay my tithes and offering (I take that out my check first). When I get done paying for those things, I hardly have any money left over for food. I ask my family to assist me w/ helping me w/ food. I try my best to pay everything on time and be responsible w/ my money but its frustrating when you always have to spend money! There have been many times where I had to ask my family to help me w/ my bills because I don’t have enough money to pay for them. I’m just getting to the point where I’m just tired of struggling! I’m like LORD HOW MUCH LONGER DO I HAVE TO GO THROUGH THIS? I know that I’m not the only person in the world that are having financial issues and are having a rough time but I’m just kind of tired. Tired of being sick and tired!
I remember before I transferred to a new school, I didn’t have all these financial issues. I say from 2005 to the middle of 2008 I was fine financially. Then all of a sudden, I had a hard time finding a job. My first job when I transferred to my new school was seasonal, I still have that job (had it since 2008). Last yr in August, God blessed me w/ a more stable job but its minimum wage. I thought once I graduated from college (I graduated in May 2010), that I would automatically get a job in my field. Things didn’t happen that way. I remember last summer applying to a lot of jobs only to have 2 places respond back to me. I learned from applying to professional jobs that they want you to have at least 2 yrs of work experience. I wish someone would had told me that when I was in college! Right now, I’m trying to look into places to volunteer at so I can get some work experience.
Another thing I worry about is my boyfriend. He has health issues (only a few ppl know exactly what the situation is). Sometimes he gets very sick and I worry how he is doing a regular basis. On top of that, I’m involved in a few projects and I’m wondering how to get them off the ground. I also worry about how I’m going to get my driver license since my learner’s license expires next yr in February. Once that expires, I will have to start all over (as in take the road test) which I don’t want to do. The problem is I don’t have really to many people to help me w/ my driving skills. Some people that I have asked said they would help me but they never come through..So I’m between a rock and a hard place. I know I need to stop worrying as much as I do because I know its not good for me. I tend to worry the most around the time my bills are due and when I receive my paycheck. Please keep me in your prayers and please share some scriptures w/ me so I can look at them!!! Be blessed!