Sometimes when you tell God what you don’t want, He has a way of placing you right in the middle of it. This is what I call God’s sense of humor. Quite frankly, I never find the jokes that funny… at least not in the beginning. Let me back up some so that you can understand. Right after I graduated high school, I took a retail job. I took the job because I loved designing clothes and I wanted the extra money. I had the job for a month before I quit and decided I would never work in retail again. Let me go on the record to say I am not a quitter. I had two jobs which I was working none stop. I barely had time for my family and friends, something I did value at the time, but wanting to spend time with my family and friends is not a valid excuse to not go to work. After a few weeks on the job, my Papa passed away. I felt so guilty that I did not spend as much time with him as I should have after I graduated. He was so excited I was going to college. I felt a deep sense of sorrow and guilt because I put work over the people I love that I decided I needed to leave my retail job.
Fast forward to Fall 2011. I was having a hard time finding a job. Man, I applied to every assistant, restaurant, and social service job that I thought I was qualified for and fit my interests. Yet, none offered me a position. Then, I felt the Holy Spirit move and I was prompted to apply for retail. I did not think much of it at the time when I was putting in applications. Next thing you know, I got call from an employer wanting an interview. I was like, “Lord! Are you serious right now? I hate retail! I’m not a sales person! I’m don’t want to do business! Lord, I want to cook!” Turns out, I took the retail job. lol. I was livid with God for a while to be honest. Why? Because He did not give me what I wanted. Retail requires you work odd hours (the same reason why I quit the first retail job I had). I was starting this job during the holiday season, so I have to deal with a lot of people and their attitudes (which is sometimes hard because I have a smart mouth but God’s grace is sufficient). I have to learn a lot of business math, which isn’t hard, but it takes some time to get use to it. Then on top of that, I just wanted to cook. But you know what? I realize that I probably would not survive working in a kitchen for hours at a time because being on my feet causes me extreme pain. There was so much I did not like about my job, but it was all in my perspective. This has been one heck of a year for me with so many negative things happening. I realized I started taking on a negative attitude and was not the optimistic person I use to be.
Then, this morning I decided to pray. I prayed to God to show me all the positive things about my job. Turns out, I actually like sales. I am a great sales person. I have convinced several people over the past few weeks to spend about a $100 or more in the store. It was exhilarating! I love helping customers match their accessories with an outfit they just bought. And secretly, I feel empowered when I have to pierce some of my customers ears (I was not coll with this at first and was freaked out by the fact that I had to put a hole in someone’s body). Knowing that I can provide a great shopping experience for my customers makes me like my job. I have to get over that I can’t always have my way and laugh at the fact that God is always right. I also have to realize that no job is perfect, there will be drawbacks to any job. It is really about what I am willing to sacrifice to get the job done. My family and friends are doing well and whenever they need me they know where to find me. Though I hate that I am sacrificing time with friends and family, I know I am building relationship with my costumers which means I can reach more people for Christ.
Joke: What do you get when you put a girl in a situation that could possibly bring more souls to Christ? A woman who puts away her selfish desires to pursue something bigger than herself.
Have an awesome day!