I ended 2011 and began my New Year with some of my best people. We laughed, got serious, and laughed some more. As I reflect on 2011 I have to say I didn’t give it my all. There were too many days to count where I laid in the bed and literally wasted away. I’m not saying having an occasionally lazy day is not need but I did my share and then some. In all honesty, I didn’t push myself in some areas, the most important being weight loss. I can literally count the days on my hand that I did exercise. I would have times here and there where I felt like I was on the right track, but I would get thrown off or throw myself off. In actually, in 2011, I didn’t even try at all. I would attribute my current stay in my weight to the 8 months at my old assisted living job. I was up on my feet so much that it cancelled out on the actually poundage I should be.
Speaking of old jobs, 2011 wasn’t really kind with me in regard to finding one where I felt the loan I am currently paying back in reflective upon. I had a conversation with a former grad friend and we were talking and she just casually mentioned how it’s almost been two years since we’ve graduated and until that moment, I hadn’t really given that much thought.That made me sad. Yes, it is good that I haven sustained jobs in that time but it’s not good for my resume and for my ego. I went to grad school for 2 years, I accumulated more debt on the top of my undergraduate debt for the sake of wanting to make a difference in the community. That hasn’t happened the way I had hoped. I would be lying to say If I haven’t felt down because of this– as if somehow this directly caused by my lack of education or smarts or what have you .
This post, however, is not written for pity party purposes but merely for reflection . Coming up in my next post are things I have brewing up for 2012 to bring about change.
Still Pushing and you should too~~