**Starbucks House of Worship ** by Pam

It has been a rough two weeks. I have just realized that I have been naughty. Yes and I am guilty and ready to confess. There is a reason that trouble is all over me. I finally had that “aha” moment. It was a total rookie mistake. The biggest ones always seem to be. I need this written down so that I don’t do it again. As you can guess from the title, coffee (Starbucks particularly) is something I love. Why not? It smells and tastes so good. It is warm, comforting, and makes me forget that I live on 5 hours of sleep per night. Any busy persons favorite addiction right?

Here is the confession. Whan things get difficult where am I supposed to turn? That should not be a question. I am a Christian. Did I go to my church family, my pastor, my Bible or that women’s Bible study that I got invited to? How about some serious prayer time? No. Why? I am too busy cleaning up messes and fixing problems. When I needed strength, energy, and a clear head, I turned to coffee. Really? Why would I do that? I have gotten through impossible situations before by leaning on God. His strength, his power, his wisdom is what makes it into a possible situation. Pride might be the reason that I wanted to think I could do this only aided by coffee. That is really not going to work and what kind of example does that set for my kiddos? I remember my mom going to God in prayer when things got bad. I remember her searching in that well worn Bible until she found what she needed. I need to do that. So it is time to take a good look at what I am doing here.

Goal 1-Treat my body better- Not doing that am I? No sleep, unhealthy diet, stress.

Goal 2-Prayerful meditation and Scripture- Only what I have read on Facebook and the morning prayer with my kids on their way to school.

Goal 3-Give blood- That one was not my fault actually. My doctor gave me the thumbs down on that.

Goal 4-Writing letters to my spiritual mentors from my past- One so far.

Goal 5- Becoming responsible to nature- The garden is coming along nicely. The recycling is not. I have neglected that and used a lot of disposables as a time saver. Not good.

Goal 6-Carpentry basics 101- I have about half of the supplies and cleared the space for my project.

Goal 7-Social time- I have not found time for the closest people in my life and that is part of the reason I am so far gone now. I need those people to check me on things and  give me encouragement and purpose.

Now it is time to lay my problems at God’s feet and say,”Help me! I cannot do this on my own.” My God will see me through this, not Starbucks. Readers, I hope you have a very blessed week full of God’s strength and peace.                                                                                                                                       Pam

  1. #1 by Renee` N. Chaffin on January 26, 2012 - 4:35 pm

    I am a huge fan of yours! We all are guilty (esp moms) and esp perfectionist moms of pushing things to the very edge of collapse. I know there are nights when I am so tired and I feel guilty for not reading to Daniel. Or not doing all the laundry or whatever task I have given myself. The main issue is ME giving ME directives. Instead of asking God to prioritize my day. I applaud and admire all your efforts 🙂

  2. #2 by radical7even on January 27, 2012 - 3:43 pm

    So proud of your goals that you are accomplishing. I have no doubt as you start to take the others to God you will continue to move forward with those goals as well! Lots of love and prayers to you!

  3. #3 by Kelly Diane Cromer on January 28, 2012 - 12:04 am

    You are amazing. How about a little coffee and add an extra shot of spirituality with that? Lol, I know what you mean though. The drive I’ve been having to Pensacola has made me slow down and I use it to pray now most of the time. It has helped me TREMENDOUSLY with staying peaceful, patient, and discerning during this training and pregnancy. Prayer is a powerful blessing. It’s amazing that God will always listen, ALWAYS. It’s a beautiful thing. Maybe next time go to Starbucks and then pray your whole way through the latte. ;D

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