It has been a rough two weeks. I have just realized that I have been naughty. Yes and I am guilty and ready to confess. There is a reason that trouble is all over me. I finally had that “aha” moment. It was a total rookie mistake. The biggest ones always seem to be. I need this written down so that I don’t do it again. As you can guess from the title, coffee (Starbucks particularly) is something I love. Why not? It smells and tastes so good. It is warm, comforting, and makes me forget that I live on 5 hours of sleep per night. Any busy persons favorite addiction right?
Here is the confession. Whan things get difficult where am I supposed to turn? That should not be a question. I am a Christian. Did I go to my church family, my pastor, my Bible or that women’s Bible study that I got invited to? How about some serious prayer time? No. Why? I am too busy cleaning up messes and fixing problems. When I needed strength, energy, and a clear head, I turned to coffee. Really? Why would I do that? I have gotten through impossible situations before by leaning on God. His strength, his power, his wisdom is what makes it into a possible situation. Pride might be the reason that I wanted to think I could do this only aided by coffee. That is really not going to work and what kind of example does that set for my kiddos? I remember my mom going to God in prayer when things got bad. I remember her searching in that well worn Bible until she found what she needed. I need to do that. So it is time to take a good look at what I am doing here.
Goal 1-Treat my body better- Not doing that am I? No sleep, unhealthy diet, stress.
Goal 2-Prayerful meditation and Scripture- Only what I have read on Facebook and the morning prayer with my kids on their way to school.
Goal 3-Give blood- That one was not my fault actually. My doctor gave me the thumbs down on that.
Goal 4-Writing letters to my spiritual mentors from my past- One so far.
Goal 5- Becoming responsible to nature- The garden is coming along nicely. The recycling is not. I have neglected that and used a lot of disposables as a time saver. Not good.
Goal 6-Carpentry basics 101- I have about half of the supplies and cleared the space for my project.
Goal 7-Social time- I have not found time for the closest people in my life and that is part of the reason I am so far gone now. I need those people to check me on things and give me encouragement and purpose.
Now it is time to lay my problems at God’s feet and say,”Help me! I cannot do this on my own.” My God will see me through this, not Starbucks. Readers, I hope you have a very blessed week full of God’s strength and peace. Pam