Just Trust- Renee

Emotionally I have been more upbeat this week vs. where I was last week. I have started a new devotion and it’s been helpful in getting me to focus on the bigger picture and not getting so bogged down in the details. Overall, my main rad7even goal (if I had to break it down) is to learn to cultivate and maintain a closer relationship with God. That being said a relationship without trust isn’t a relationship at all. So, I have been working on not letting outside factors determine my peace level. I have no control over really anything, and every day I am here with my loved ones is a true gift. The day might not end how I think it should, but I trust that God has a much bigger reason.

Just like with my testimony. I’ve spent the last few months encouraging women; especially single mothers, I was ask to speak to a group of women, many of whom are single mothers as well because I am a “success story”. That sounds so wild to me, because I never imagined that I would talk to anyone about anything that I went through, because the journey here was not easy, but I thank God for it. I also recently wrote on a friend’s blog about the importance of valuing yourself and owning your sexuality. But after all this talk about my past I realized that 1) God has brought me so far and 2) maybe it’s time for me to stop looking back so much. I think my testimony is wonderful, I have a loving caring son and things between his father and I are what I would consider a testament to a working and functional co-parenting relationship. BUT I am so much more than a “single mother who has overcome” and God has so much more He is trying to do in my life, but I am so focused on warning other women or empowering other women that I sometimes neglect myself. So I have started back focusing on the dreams God has placed in my heart. Dreams of home and business ownership, dreams of just having more than what I currently see. I haven’t done so well on my budgeting (instead of buying food I’ve been buying books and educational DVDs for Daniel and myself..oops) but I am determined now that I feel conformation that this city will be my home to really put roots down right where I am. I realized that I have commitment issues, I see  a good deal of where I am at as temporary. It’s why I haven’t had a relationship in almost 3 1/2 years. I am always looking to upgrade, but sometimes you have to grow with someone, grow into something..just like with my position at my job I’ve had to grow into some things.So..my new goal is to be a bit more committed…which will be hard LOL I am a natural DIY kinda girl…so let’s see what happens next

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Just Trust

Renee`

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  1. #1 by Camille on February 9, 2012 - 6:25 pm

    Hey Renee! I have enjoyed following radical7even and even told a few friends about it. Have you visited the library for those educational books and DVD’s for Daniel and yourself? My local branch has been a great place to find resources. They have events for children and adults also. I have attended a knitting circle and circuit training class there.

    What you said about realizing that you have commitment issues really struck me. I have lived in four states since 2009 and am ready to move again for graduate school. One day I will commit but right now isn’t my time.

    May God continue to bless you on your journey.

  2. #2 by Audrey on February 10, 2012 - 3:44 pm

    I will be praying for you and your DIY habits. I know from personally experience that it is very hard to give it all to God. I have been struggling with that myself. But I am proud of you for moving this direction and learning to be mroe comitted. Love you girl!
    ~Audrey

  3. #3 by Renee N. Chaffin on February 10, 2012 - 9:35 pm

    Hey Camille!!!
    Wow, thanks so much for sharing this journey with me! and boy has it been a journey, I am going to try and do a video soon, because I really want to have another avenue to connect. BUT nope, I have a library card and Daniel and I were going every two weeks, but the main library is not close to my house and the one that is, doesn’t have all the resources that the one downtown has, so sadly I haven’t been like I should (hence why I’ve been spending money and I don;t need to) LOL But I will def check that out again!

    I have always had a restless spirit always on the move, but I think for me that has caused me to not always face certain issues or feelings because I knew I wasn’t going to be there long. So now is my time to face my “demons” so to speak and really fix whats going on here. And who knows after that time is done..I might end up moving after all. I just felt strongly to stay here (for now).
    May God continue to bless you as well!! take care hun!

  4. #4 by Renee N. Chaffin on February 10, 2012 - 9:37 pm

    Hey Audrey,
    I love you so much. Thanks for all the kind words and prayers 🙂

  5. #5 by radical7even on February 13, 2012 - 12:25 am

    I’m so proud of you chica! 😀 -Kelly

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