This week I have learned of the deaths of three young people all under 30, some I was close to some I was not,but when this happens one cannot help but face their own mortality. In doing so I realized that all the wonderful things being said by those who have passed may or may not have been said to that person while they were alive. That being said I would like to take time to make this post a dedication to those I love while they can still read it. These are in no particular order:
Daniel- my sweet babyboy, you have literally caused me to grow into the woman I am today. You taught me what unconditional love is and have literally opened chambers of my heart that I didn’t even know existed. You’ve made me stronger yet more vulnerable and I wouldn’t have it any other way. Every single day that you live and breathe mommy has been proud of you. You’ve grown into such a big boy and I pray that God blesses you with wisdom,knowledge and an open mind to His Will.
Mom- what can I say about the woman that I admire soooo much. We’ve been through a lot in our 25 years and I thank God for each one. You’re amazing and beautiful and the hardest working and sacrificing person I know. Without a doubt I know you would give each one of your children your very last and that is something that I will never forget nor take for granted. Thank you for pushing me to be me, you’ve always supported my dreams, were there during some of my most emotional steps and have never wavered in your dedication to me and daniel. I can’t thank you enough for always being yourself..which can cause some wild and funny lol moments, but it wouldn’t be you without them. I can never tell you enough how much you mean to me. I love you dearly.
Dad-though our relationship has morphed and changed over the last few years I will never forget the lessons you have taught me. I’m stronger I think for some of the things that you didn’t do more so than the ones you have. You’ve taught me to rely on God, to take that relationship as serious as they come and I thank you for instilling that in me. You gave me a love for watching storms instead of being afraid of them, something I recently started with Daniel and I thank you for the endless to debates that have caused me to think of ideas,things and situations in a multitude of ways. I love you
Kristina- my roll dawg, my ace my pic (partner in crime) I love you sister! You constantly amaze me, you have more strength and ability than you realize. You have one of the biggest hearts I have ever seen. Thank you for loving Daniel and me..and for even trying to “take care” of your big sister. I can’t wait to see what God does in your life, I only hope you continue using your ability for good.
Stephen- the clown of our household, you have such an intriguing spirit and I wish I knew more of what you think (I guess lol). I love how we share that sarcastic humor and that you always know what to say to put me in my place. You’ve developed into an amazing young man stay focused and you will go far.
Joshua- my baby brother, you are one of the most real person I have ever met. Whatever you feel you embrace and never hide it, that causes us to bump heads @ times but it also causes me to respect you and your opinions. Always be real with others, but remember there’s a cost to everything we do, some.might not be as receptive as others. I love your heart for God and how you do try to give of yourself. You have a sweet spirit.
LaDarren- who would have known that you’d be the love of my life? I think you are absolutely wonderful, by no means are you as big time as me (insider) but I love you just the same. I can’t thank you enough for being a wonderful father to your own son and accepting Daniel as your own. For listening to all of my worries and fears and not freaking out and for being one of the few people that I can honestly say I am 100% myself around. You’ve seen the good,bad and awesome lol and you’re still here. After a half a decade of friendship I had no idea that youd be such an intrigual part of my life, but I honestly thank God for you.
Danielle- we have been best friends since literally the first day I met you. I’ve never met a more accepting and loving person than you. You have taken friendship into a whole other level and have become the best person I could have ever selected to be Daniel’s godmother. You have such a kind spirit and I love how whatever comes up comes out with you lol every single memory I have of you is filled with laughter. I pray that there’s a million more of those.
Kelly- my dearest Kels. You are absolutely awesome. Every task thrown at you, you’ve handled with such an amazing attitude. You have an amazingly huge heart and will fight for whatever cause you believe in. You are committed to the equality of all and one of the few friends I think that share my passion so deeply for those that are disadvantaged. Thank you for allowing both daniel and I into your family. Because of you I met kim, pam and her family, randi, Mamma Joy,papa ken and of course the one and only William lol. You’re going to be an amazing mamma!
Venus- what can I say about one of the most unique members of HIS. You’re one of the most quiet persons I’ve ever met but not because you don’t have anything to say. I’ve enjoyed getting to know you more through HIS and the blogs. You love hard and truly try to do right by everyone. Thank you for always trying to encourage others. My wish is that you find (or if you have found this person really allow them to pour into you) someone who will only lift you higher.
Audrey- you give and give and give. You’re such sweetheart and just have an inviting spirit. No matter what event it is(childs party,going away, christmas party, new years etc) you always make sure you are there. You make an effort like I have almost never seen to be there for everyone and you give some of the most thoughtful and touching gifts I’ve ever seen. I don’t think I tell you enough how much I appreciate and admire you. You deal so much with your chronic kidney disease yet you live life in such away that at times I forget how difficult that must be. Thank you so much for being you. I love you!
Gem- you’re a private person but I have to brag on the old roomie. You’re one of the wisest people I’ve ever met, someone filled with so much grace and intgrity that I’ve admired you from day one. I knew when I met you, that you were a force to be reckoned with and I thank you for being one of the most considerate people I’ve ever met. You’ve def done amazing things with the time that I’ve known you and I pray your territory increases!
Beyondai- I’ve known you for 50-11 years lol you’re a fighter and I love that about you. You’ve endured a lot yet I see the optimism inside of you. I’ve always admired (yet it drives me crazy lol) how you handle yourself and the million and one things you do. You’re one of the most creative people I’ve ever met..idk if you see how amazing your abilities are. How you can bring people together, how quickly you learn and conquer new tasks, but I think you’re absolutely amazing.
Pam!- yes I meant to put that exclamation point. I love you. Any person who purposely opens up their heart to anyone that’s ever been hurt is a hero in my book. I can’t imagine the tears and anxieties you’ve had over the lovely little people you currently have or those that have passed through your hallways. You’re an inspiration. I always love talking to you, because you have so much power in what you say and how you choose to live your life. You hear from God and move on that, its not been an easy path I can tell, but I thank God for the choices you’ve made
E- I don’t tell you how thankful I am that you have been involved in Daniels life. Its been an amazing journey watching our gift continue to grow into his own person. I’ve learned many life lessons from you and it has def grown me up quickly. Thank you.
Jenna- I have zero clue if you’ll ever read this, but you have one of the most gentle and pure spirits I’ve ever
met. Any time I think of you I smile. I love how you literally throw your entire self into a project and are not afraid to step out onto thin air and allow God to catch you..that’s amazing
Mamma cromer- thanks for opening your hearts and doors to each of us. You’ve always been nothing but the kindest person to both daniel and myself. You and papa ken have raised amazing women so I know that those awesome qualities had to come from somewhere. You’re an absolutely beautiful person
Kim- sweetheart you have a fire that I’ve seen in very few people. You’re incredibly sweet but know how to stand your ground and I love that about you. I never wonder what you’re thinking because you always let me know. I miss you dearly and hate I’ve missed most of your pregnancy but I know you’re going to be a great mom. You’re a lovely person!
If I forgot anyone I apologize its like 4 am and I’m sleepy lol!