When I first started this journey, I was apprehensive. I had a lot on my plate and was very stressed. The thought have having another deadline made my skin crawl. I contemplated and prayed, pulled away from my friends, and tried to listen to the Holy Spirit. I did not give into peer pressure and waited for Jesus to say “move.”
Then he said it. And I moved.
I didn’t know how much this would mean to me. This journey has allowed me to be connected with my friends and has brought me closer to God. This has become one of the most important aspects of my life. I have reconnected with God going back to the wonder and desire to learn that I had as a child in Sunday school. He has allowed me to grow in ways I could have never imagined, and I would have never accomplished what I have with out God’s guidance. He gives me strength to do my job each day, the healing powers to stabilize my kidneys, and the unconditional love of my HIS girls. These are all gifts I’ve been given and that I try to repay each day.
I never liked journaling. I did it as a child but when I went back and read them, they seemed trite and silly. But when I go back and read my blogs, they are neither. It’s not just that my problems have changed, it is that I have learned that my problems matter and there is someone to guide me through them
This realization keeps me going, inspiring me to blog and motivates me to change my life. I may not have achieved all my goals this year, but I am a better person now than I was one year ago. Now that is radical.