“I’m waking up
I feel it in my bones
Enough to make my systems blow”
“Radioactive” Imagine Dragons
Time for the Six Month Check in for my yearly goals. I am making some progress.
1. Accept and Learn to Live with my Diagnosis
So I finally have a “diagnosis.” I have both autoimmune and immune deficiency issues. I either do not create enough antibodies in my blood or they are washed out by my kidney disease. I also have Lupus anticoagulant. This does not mean I have lupus, but means I am at high risks of blood clots. Now I just need a treatment plan to keep moving with my diagnosis and life. My two doctors are working closely on this and a treatment plan is on the horizon. I haven’t given up on life and have planned fun trips and shared my story.
There is a special prayer in my new prayer book that has truly helped me. I read this prayer often and meditate on the message. I have also read up a lot on forgiveness from spiritual and Biblical perspectives. I am slowly forgiving, and I am already feeling the peace that comes with forgiveness. I think that peace is helping me emotionally and therefore physically. So this goal is moving along slowly but it’s moving.
I have done some crafting. I am still behind of some of the Christmas presents for my friends. Opps! But this keeps me working every month and lets them know I do love them even though we are all so far apart now. My next project will be decoupaging a prayer box. I plan to put my favorite bible verses, inspirational picture, and quotes on the box. I will write out my prayers and put them in this box allowing me to do something physical with my prayers helping my body relieve tension and stress.
4. Spiritual Readings
I have finished two of the five books and have started on a third. I finished Girl Meets God and Heaven is for Real. I am currently reading “And the Angels Were Silent” by Max Lucado. I know where my Psalm study is….I just haven’t done any of it. My daily devotional reading has slipped but I am trying to get ahead of that again. I also have a great prayer book called “God’s Help for Your Every Need: 101 Life Changing Prayers” that I read a lot. It truly has a prayer for almost every situation. This has been a strong guide for me. Overall, not too bad on this one.
I have finished paying off my hospital bills! Whoo hoo! Now to budget for any new bills due to my illness. At the moment, these numbers are not yet clear. I have almost paid off all my other debt (except my car loan) and I feel really good about this. It’s been about nine years in the making. I have a pretty decent saving account but still need to keep it going no matter what. I don’t have written out budget but I have been doing well mentally preparing. But I need a pen-and-paper budget and stick to it to really meet this goal.
I am learning patience especially with allowing loved ones to express themselves in their own manner than what I should expect. When I do this, I embrace them fully and allow myself not to be disappointed by misreading of others. I have given each of my Radical 7even coparts a challenge and watched how they met that challenge. I gave them something to help them grow and to allow me to see how they operate with no biases. This has been good for me. Also, I have been trying to stay in the moment with my boyfriend. This is helping though I am getting somewhat frustrated with the right now of our relationship. This gives me new insight into what the issues really are.
7. Slow Down
I haven’t stopped my life. I have even taken on some new opportunities. I am now the co-chair for the State of Alabama for the Professional Association for Therapeutic Horsemanship. So my friend and I are working together to organize the local therapeutic riding centers and help each one meet its needs. I also flew to Washington DC for Kidney Action Day at Capitol Hill (more about that later). But I have started to slow down. I take off work when I need to go home and take some time to rest. I am reading more allowing me to get off my legs and rest my body. I have turned down things when I couldn’t do them with very little guilt. This has been a big step in the slowing down process for me.