I am a woman…a mother…an employee -All three can co-exist
A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still night;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her female servants.- Proverbs 31:10-15
Stop apologizing for being a working mother. I’m a good, loyal worker. I always give my best. And for the past five years of being a working mother I’ve rushed through events or left events early to rush back to work. Or I rushed to drop him off so I could go back to class. I just feel like the past 5 years of motherhood I spent rushing. Being a mom and a wife is very important to me and I really want to focus on my family and my role within my family. I always give 100% at work, but sometimes when I am home I feel guilty for not being at work and when I am at work I feel guilty for not being at home.
This year my little guy started kindergarten and I can’t believe how fast that time went. I will blink again and he will be in middle school. Since we have decided to have just three little guys (unless God decides otherwise) I really want to make every moment with each child count… So this year I am not only making this a goal, but will work on detailing how to make this a success, that will come on my next entry.
Reconnect to God by disconnecting from distractions
The Bible talks about the importance of praying and fasting. Until the unplugged blog, I hadn’t fasted in a long time, maybe two years. I am committed to fasting every month during this 5th year of Rad 7even. It might not always be food, but I am committed to really working on reconnecting with God and by doing so I will give up something so I can make that connection deepen. I have gotten so much clarity since starting this two week food fast coupled with unplugging it’s been freeing. I really want to capture that feeling as often as possible.
Stop looking for other things to save, complete or give me identity
Exodus 20:3 “You shall have no other gods before me.
At one of my places of employment I endured some pretty harsh opposition. God had spoken to me months prior about what I needed to do, but I had made that job an idol. It was my source for money, stability and my identity was very tied to it, so much so that I stayed because what would leaving do? How would I be able to take care of all the things I needed?- God is my source above all things and when I make my focus things of this earth fear will make me stay when I know God is telling me to move or move when God is telling me to stay. I will let that thing influence me over what I feel convicted about. This year I will work to identify any and all idols that are in my life and work to tear those down
Pay on what I owe without being buried by debt
I have talked about tackling debt for at least three years. I have finally taken some practical steps to begin eliminating my debt. I’ve consolidated my student loans and my consumer debt. I have started paying extra on those debts to hopefully pay them off quickly. I have also decided to utilize more extra funds for paying off this debt as well. We have decided to try to buy a house within the next year. I have a goal of getting rid of all of my consumer debt within 1 year. I will detail this on another post as well. I have a plan…if I can commit to it this goal is extremely realistic and will help us get the home that God has for us.
When things have come up (my cancer scare, ectopic pregnancy, Daniel’s seizures) I have been fearful of all of those circumstances. I have some irrational fears that have come up and I worry and worry some more about it. I do not rest in the peace of Christ. I am realistic and know that I will have issues and fears come up, but I really want to overcome that fear with my faith. This is the goal I think of Christianity, learning to work out our faith despite of what we see naturally.