Being the oldest of four children I have always been the one to put other people before me. It’s never been difficult for me and honestly I genuinely enjoy helping people. I enjoy helping people reach their goals, supporting them tough losses and encouraging them to start again. I honestly think encouragement is one of my strongest giftings.
My real issue is not that I encourage other people, it’s that I still haven’t learned how to value myself and my resources (time, goals, love, money) the same way I do for another person. I give until I am almost depleted, but I honestly don’t have a lot of people who pour back into me. I am alot like Martha and Mary….
38 As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. 39 She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said. 40 But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!”
41 “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, 42 but few things are needed—or indeed only one.[f] Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.”
I never understood why Jesus didn’t ask Mary to help Martha or ask Martha to sit down with them and relax. Was it because Martha was doing things to be seen? Was she missing out on bonding because she was worried about details? I still don’t know honestly. I am praying for some real revelation, because I honestly identify more with Martha than maybe any other character in the Bible.
Maybe I have love all wrong. Maybe you shouldn’t feel so empty afterwards-maybe real love is stopping before you get to that point and reevaluating where you are and why you are doing the things you are doing. Maybe you aren’t supposed to love people more than yourself, but equal to the love you give yourself. And maybe…just maybe that’s what Jesus was trying to tell Martha.