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…just can’t get my po’self together.
It’s been a minute. Your girl been going through some things but I am happy that the writing bug has bitten me so here I am. I would love to say that I promise to do better but I’m going to take this thing called Life, one day at a time.
God speaks to me but he doesn’t talk with words. He shows me things. He uses visuals with me.
My occupation has me driving. A lot. I put on average 1,000 miles on my car a month, not including what I do outside of work. So, I am in my car. A lot. If you are in Alabama or in the surrounding states then you know that it has been raining on a daily basis. So recently, I drove for miles and saw nothing but sunshine but after a while, I noticed rain was on the horizon. It is a mixture of dark grey and Aegean blue. It’s hazy but I can see through it. The closer I get to it, I notice subtle changes to the atmosphere; Fog begins to arise from the asphalt, there’s a misty smell that comes through the vents, and then the rain and I finally meet. At first, it’s not that bad and I am sure that I can see the end of it. However, after about 3 minutes, the rain is not letting up and visibility is nonexistent at the moment. I put on my blinkers and I get my speed between 25 and 30 mph. Not even 5 minutes after that, the rain ceases. I shut off my emergency lights and my windshield wipers. The sun is already coming out. I look back in my rear view mirror and I see where I just come from and it still looks gloomy but I made it out with no wounds.
I know you asking what the heck this got to with God speaking to me…..
Welllll, like I said earlier, I’ve been going through stuff. In the next couple of months, I will be making life changing decisions but that doesn’t stop my day to day responsibilities from not going haywire. For some things, I can feel things are starting to change, and not always for the best. At first, it feels manageable but then for what ever reason, my visibility becomes cloudy and I have to put on my emergency lights (prayer) and windshield wipers ( faith). It feels like forever but the storm doesn’t last always. The sun will shine again and it’s okay to look back again to see how I overcame the storm.
Sincere: sinˈsir/ (adj.) free from pretense or deceit; proceeding from genuine feelings.
My pastor has good sermons but his delivery can be a little lackluster. I’ve learned that if I listen to him and write notes that I get so much more from him. He said something that has stayed with me since last Sunday. He said,
nothing is more offensive to God and to man but to not be sincere.
This statement really got me thinking. What does it mean to be sincere? To me it means to be myself, no matter what the consequences are or what others may think of me. There were things that I thought I couldn’t share about myself because of what others would think of me. I thought that people would see me as being different. I’m learning now that being different is sometimes a qualification for one, really enjoying my life and feeling and being authentic. I feel like this past year I have truly been my sincere self. I have shared parts of my self to my closest friends and they never one batted an eye about being supportive of me.
How do you define sincere?
I got the great opportunity to write year 6 goals with my bestie. I am always inspired by the strength of the ladies that God has allowed me to meet on this journey called Life. Some of my goals will be add on from previous years and some are completely new to push me out of my comfort zones. It is my prayer that I commit myself to be more transparent with my journey via blogging with Radical 7even. Honestly, it was our goal when we first started blogging but slowly I started to slack. Thank you for joining us on this Journey. I hope you enjoy our posts.
Here’s to Year 6!
I’ve decided to not do 7 goals but create 5 goals on various parts of my life that I want God to move in.
JOURNALING: I WANT TO JOURNAL AT LEAST 4 TIMES A WEEK
o I have had many friends and family give me beautiful journals. I would write for a month of so but then it would get put down and not picked up, except for the random day. This year and part of 2015 I have done what I consider really well with journal. For the year of 2016, I written at least once a week for the past 6 months.
Use Journal Prompts via Pinterest Pins, Book Questions
Seek out Spiritual/Religious sermons and readings
Honesty Writing about my Day
o Mental Health is a subject that is not talked about enough in the minority community and sometimes with our closest friends. I want to shine a light on these issues
Do a weekly blog on my personal blog titled Wellness Wednesdays
Highlight wellness resources in the local community and nationwide
Being honest about my personal mental health issues and self care.
FINANCIAL/EXTRA STREAMS OF INCOME
o I am believing in 2017 that I will be moving and in the last 2 years I have been doing better with paying my bills on time and I want to continue this trend by building up my savings as well as earning more income for traveling and extracurricular activities.
Be intentional with posting on my DaniGee’s blog and various social media Platforms.
Seek out webinars and informationals on how to make thrifting successful
Plan out writing sessions.
o In simple terms, I gotta do better.
Find a daily meditation
Dedicate 30 min in the morning with Bible Readings
Seek out what it means to be a Christian.
o I have been off the wagon too long. I hang on to the fact that I lost about 30 pounds but I realized that it has been about 10 years and it’s time to start again and continue the journey.
Looking for more ways to eat healthier, i.e. smoothies and crockpot recipes.
Being more intentional in exercising
Joining health challenges
I am praying for an eventful radical year. Please pray for us.
I am always surprised by God’s grace and mercy. I shouldn’t be but I always am. For the past 10 years, I have been wrestling with something that has literally have me between the flight or freeze position. Either I would run from the feelings that I was having or I would freeze and deny that I was going through it. But as always God has a way of bringing things to surface.
I was afraid. I was terrified that I would lose my friends, that they would disown me. However, as always, my friends are awesome. They showered me with love and understanding. They have empowered me and showed me that they are truly in my corner.
Now, I am in fight mode. Fighting for my truth. Fighting for what I feel is right. Life is too short to fear life. Have fun. laugh. Surround yourself with beautiful spirits.
One who has unreliable friends soon comes to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother. Proverbs 18:24
2015 started off just like the last couple of years, a lot of promised and excited energy but I am not sure when but the energy bubbled down to concentrated energy; Concentrating on making it one day to the next, living for the weekend. It wasn’t all bad though, because also like the last couple of years, I have learned more about myself. Here are a few lessons I’ve learned.
- I have a strong support system. From blood to the family my God has put the best people into my life; he has gifted with me with some beautiful spirits. They constantly encourage and pray for me. They are so non-judgmental. In my profession as a substance abuse counselor, I’ve learned that what I have is not the norm but I’m so blessed that it is my norm.
- I am a competent professional. I have a lot of self-doubt. I doubt if I am making a difference. I doubt if I was helping others learn concepts about their disease. It actually too me finding a new job and hearing what clients have to say about me for me to get a tiny glimpse of how they have been benefited from me.
- Making mistakes are okay, dwelling in them is not. I make mistakes, sometimes daily. Some things I am able to get over quicker than others. What I’ve learned is that when I do something outside of what I feel is out of my character, it takes me longer to rebound. It’s a learning process but I’m slowly coming to terms that I can make mistakes and not beat myself up forever.
- I want more from my life. I’ve been feeling this way for the past couple years but it started to get stronger this year. I want to network more. I want to deal more with my counseling association. I have other things to offer and can learn from others.
- You only live one. That’s right. I can’t keep waiting on the right circumstances or the right waist size. If I want to do it, now is probably the best time to do it. I’ve learned to not wait on the right circumstances and to not over think things.
Cheers to 2015 and waiting expectantly on 2016.
Until Next Time,