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Self Doubt. Anger. Confusion. No Time. These past couple of months have been challenging, to the say the least. I was asked to take on another role at work, which I was such an honor and I was so happy to even be considered. What I didn’t immediately realize would come would be difficult work situations and extra responsibilities that doesn’t always end at 5 o’clock. During this time of transition, I’ve doubted myself, became stressed and anxious to the point where the only thing that got me out of bed was the fact that I knew I could hop back in as soon as I got back home. I hate that feeling but sometimes it felt like it was unavoidable. I was able to decompress with trusted coworkers and my best friends but I felt like I was hitting the same wall on a weekly basis. Is this what it looks like when you are given more responsibilities? If so, I was looking for the receipt and the package that it came in.
But God. He knows what I need even before I ask. He gave me April 16th. He gave me the holiday to celebrate his son’s resurrection. He gave me (US) his only son, the ultimate sacrifice. It was doing this day that it hit me that he sacrificed his life for me, not to live life in ever-anxious state but to LIVE. He wants all the praise. The life I live should be a joyful one, a one of thankfulness on our tongue.
Life can be daunting. It can be uncomfortable and scary. However, I believe in God. I believe that he has his best interests for me. It is a reason for me to be going through this. It is for preparation for something greater. God has made ME in his image and he makes no mistakes. He has given me the tools for my purpose in this world.
25 Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. The one who believes in me will live, even though they die; 26 and whoever lives by believing in me will never die. Do you believe this?”
27 “Yes, Lord,” she replied, “I believe that you are the Messiah, the Son of God, who is to come into the world.” -John 11 25-27
Hey Radical World!
I can’t believe next week is the last week of September…where oh where did the month go???
I am falling behind on my reading of the Bible goal by the end of this year already! I can’t understand why I am so tired at night.. I’ve literally fallen asleep almost every night while I am reading. So I am really trying to straighten this goal out..it’s important to me to really know and study the Bible like I should.
The past two weeks I have been focused on my emotional health..working on taking breaks at work when things get stressful and these past two weeks have probably been the hardest I have had (professionally) since I moved to the City. I love social services and hate social services for all the same reasons. You are able to help people in a very direct and meaningful way, but you are also involved with individuals that have complex and some times chronic issues. Issues that were there long before they entered case management..how do I make their time in case management meaningful? I work hard at being personable and to show people that I am human ( some clients tend to see us as a cog in a machine). But it can still be very taxing and I have carried things home more often than I should. So, I am learning to set better boundaries at work. I work hard on the goals and tasks at hand, but if a client chooses to make decisions that I disagree with or take steps back I am working on not being overly invested. Their decisions are just that… theirs. I cannot hold onto something that is out of my control even if I know it can cause negative consequences for them.
I have also decided to make some firm decisions about a very emotionally taxing relationship. I was really torn between confronting someone and terminating the relationship or just letting things remain the same. Because I am serious about trying to follow the Bible’s advice on this topic about honoring people I decided to let the relationship stay the way it was. There was no need to get overly caught up if this person contacted me or made time for me. If they wanted to spend time with me..then I would indulge them..and if not I would continue with my daily life and routine..no need for dramatics. Let the relationship evolve or dissolve organically…Godly.
Breathe In, Breathe Out